Right now I am dealing with life one day at a time. Trying to figure it out. Trying to figure out how I go forward, how we go forward. Talking to God takes quite a bit of effort. Listening to God is even harder. Kevin and I are separated not by choice but due to life’s circumstances. Sickness, unemployment, problems with finances, and eviction. I never thought this would happen to me. I now know hard times can fall on anyone. I so thought life would be different from this. I know God is *there* but He seems distant. I know God is watching over us and guiding us. Even though I know this I doubt. I ask “How can this be?” “I am going through this crap and He’s letting me go through very hard times.” Yet I have this feeling that God is in charge and things will be better. Eventually. But impatiently I wonder when. And hope it happens sooner than later. To help me get through this time I have been praying, reading, and talking to family and friends. God Bless.